Monday, December 30, 2013

Ava Ayers and Dead Kennedys: Bite Me, Lloyd Dobler




As 2013 comes to an end, I'm reflecting on breakups. Not just on this year's but over the last several years. I've come to the conclusion that my ideas surrounding my definition of relationships and romantic love has remained static since about the second grade. And it's not just me. How many times have you ever sat with your girlfriends, pint of ice cream or vodka in your face, and said: "Why can't I get a guy to pull a Lloyd Dobler for me?" 

I get it. 

Because a guy with a boom box and bad taste in music standing under my window would prove my worth, right? Look at all this trouble for little old me! And when this inevitably did not happen, it colored my whole remembrance of the relationship and how I perceived myself. He usually ended up much better than he actually was in my mind and I ended up much worse. 

It's not all Lloyd Dobler's fault. It's ego-driven. 

This is not a useful expectation for us to have and it's not fair to expect of the other. I can only imagine how I would feel if some dude said to me: "You never took me and three circus freaks on like that chick in Around The World In Katie Blaze! You never loved me!"

So bite me, Lloyd Dobler.

As much as I do not want anyone's heart broken in 2014, if it happens to me, I vow to look upon the relationship, the man and myself without the insane, emo, romanticized filter as I should have in a couple of my past relationships.

You know, honestly:

Sunday, December 29, 2013

Happy Holidaze!



I hope you all have an absolutely amazing holiday and my wish for you (and me) is that 2014 is filled with a billion times more laughter than tears and much more passion than despair. 

Reach out to a friend, or even a stranger, who you suspect is lonely. People don't always tell you when they are and it's not like that tacky sweater your granny gave you for Christmas--it isn't always be seen on the outside. Be kind to yourselves and one another and fill yourself with love even when, especially when, you feel like you can't bear it.

Think about sharing your fears and your dreams and the stuff that makes you feel like you may be a tad insane with someone. Just take the leap (hell, write to me if you don't want anyone to know, I promise you'll feel less crazy). If you made a mistake and trusted the wrong person, well, now you know. Whatever.

Do not allow anyone to dumb you down, do not allow anyone to stand on your neck and do not allow anyone to dismiss you. However, go out there and knock each person you meet on their ass with your humanity...someone will envy you for it and follow in kind. 

Let go of trying to say the perfect thing or wearing the perfect thing or making the perfect thing. Better yet, drop the word perfect. But make sure you are awesome today and even more awesome tomorrow. 

At the end of the day, we are all a little fucking nuts. Get over it.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Playlists and Music


I need to listen to music as much as I need to write.

When I begin a project, I create a Playlist for that project which sets the tone (see what I did there?) for the characters, locations, different scenes and moods. Depending on how focused my brain feels I will sometimes listen to the songs I created in my playlists while I'm writing or I will listen to get me geared up in preparation for the writing. 

Sometimes, I mention certain songs or bands in individual books like I did in Pretty Hate. Music and certain songs  bonded Beth Munroe and her friend India...songs like Tuesday's Gone by Lynryd Skynyrd, which they always listened to on airplanes or Cut Dead by Jesus and Mary Chain, which they always listened to when their hearts were broken.

I included the Playlists for the books I created on the site. I also frequently include a video in a post because I was listening to that song while writing the post. I tried to find videos on YouTube that did not have advertisements (is everything monetized these days?) because it's sort of jarring to be interrupted by a tampon ad in the middle of listening to some sweet tunes--at least I find it so. 

My musical taste is eclectic. I listen to anything from rap to punk. It's a certain song that does it for me rather than a particular genre. I get inspired by the music and pick up the mood from a certain song that I feel down to my toes. I've frequently discovered certain bands or songs by suggestions from others. 

So, I hope you hear something you like. Maybe a song you forgot about that evokes a certain memory or a new song you discover that you listen to on a loop. Let me know if you have any suggestions for songs you love too!

Here's a link to my YouTube Channel in case you want to listen in a different window: Ava Ayers YouTube Channel

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Ava Ayers' The Inquisitor's Song Released Exclusively on Amazon

Hello!

My new novel The Inquisitor's Song has been released as an Amazon exclusive! I'm happy about this, but will be releasing it after the first of the year so my Nook and Apple friends can download as well.

The print copy is being put together currently. If you don't want to wait you can download the Kindle apps for your device as well. 

Download the free Kindle apps from Amazon here:

Free Kindle Apps For Your Device

As always, thank you all and let me know what you think!


Book Description

Publication Date: November 21, 2013

As the lead Inquisitor of The Order, Luca Maretti, is sent to enact vengeance against Offenders all over the world. A beautiful and sadistic man, Luca’s proficiency in the chamber is second only to his expertise in the bedroom. The new mission is unprecedented within The Order. The exquisite Lena Mason is chosen to accompany Luca to Manhattan as junior Inquisitor on the assignment. Auto-Da-Fé is declared against the Offenders: Paul Kirschner, the handsome, depraved special prosecutor for New York’s Public Integrity Board and his pretty, pathologically vain wife Katy who is aware of all her husband’s immoral secrets. While Luca and Lena wield an Inquisitor’s meticulous punishment over the Offenders, the tension developing between the passionate Inquisitors is much harder to control. 

The Inquisitor’s Song is Ava Ayers' newest release after her best-selling erotic fantasy novel, Immoral Beloved. The Inquisitor’s Song is a 40,000-word fantasy novel that contains erotic scenes, incidents of Medieval retribution against entitled hypocrites and lively discussions about cake sitters. Meant for mature readers, all characters are eighteen years of age or older.

Ava Ayers The Inquisitor's Song

Monday, October 21, 2013

Ava Ayers' Latest Novel The Inquisitor's Song Getting Ready Slated For Release...Blurb And Cover Revealed

I am pleased to announce my latest novel The Inquisitor's Song is getting ready to be released. 


I've included the blurb for The Inquisitor's Song, which may change, and the cover, which will not. I hope you like them. I had a lot of fun writing this!


Here is the blurb:

As the lead Inquisitor of The Order, Luca Maretti, is sent to enact vengeance against Offenders all over the world. A beautiful and sadistic man, Luca’s proficiency in the chamber is second only to his expertise in the bedroom. The new mission is unprecedented within The Order. The exquisite Lena Mason is chosen to accompany Luca to Manhattan as junior Inquisitor on the assignment. Auto-Da-Fé is declared against the Offenders: Paul Kirschner, the handsome, depraved special prosecutor for New York’s Public Integrity Board and his pretty, pathologically vain wife Katy who is aware of all her husband’s immoral secrets. While Luca and Lena wield an Inquisitor’s meticulous punishment over the Offenders, the tension developing between the passionate Inquisitors is much harder to control. 

The Inquisitor’s Song is Ava Ayers' newest release after her best-selling erotic fantasy novel, Immoral Beloved. The Inquisitor’s Song is a 40,000-word fantasy novel that contains erotic scenes, incidents of Medieval retribution against entitled hypocrites and lively discussions about cake sitters. Meant for mature readers, all characters are eighteen years of age or older.


And here is the cover:

Ava Ayers The Inquisitor's Song

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Immoral Beloved On Sale!

Hello, pretties!


For a limited time, Immoral Beloved on sale at Amazon, Barnes and Noble, All Romance Ebooks or Apple! Grab your copy before the publishing man raises the prices again :)



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Tuesday, March 5, 2013

More Immoral Beloved Research, The Bridgewater State Hospital For The Criminally Insane, Banned Documentary Titicut Follies and a little Pixies

In Immoral Beloved, the prison most mentioned is the Brigewater State Hospital for the Criminally Insane. As much as the name alone evokes a certain vision, it doesn't come close to what The Bridgewater State Hospital for the Criminally Insane was at the time. 

In Immoral Beloved, two of my characters, Alexander Battle and Bobby Allen were remanded to Bridgewater and in truth, Bridgewater was where most of the "problem" cases were remanded, but they were often not "insane." I went into detail about the abhorrent conditions at Bridgewater because Bridgewater was an abhorrent place. The Boston Strangler, Albert DeSalvo was a guest at Bridgewater and even he tried to escape it was so bad. 

So horrid was this prison, in 1967 a documentarian by the name of Frederick Wiseman filmed a movie at Bridgewater during their annual talent show called Titicut Follies (Tititcut is not some obscure dirty word, it is a Wapanoag word for the Taunton River which runs near Bridgewater and what the guards at Bridgewater called the talent show).

In the Titicut Follies documentary, Frederick Wiseman and John Marshall, who filmed the movie, caught the forced tube feedings, degrading and bullying treatment of the inmates by the guards, filthy conditions and mind-boggling psychiatric sessions between the staff psychiatrist and the inmates. Titicut Follies was only in release for a short time before it was pulled from distribution by Massachusetts Superior Court judge Harry Kalus citing privacy concerns for the inmates even though Wiseman secured all the necessary releases. Frederick Wiseman tried to appeal to the U.S. Supreme Court in 1969, but they refused to hear his case. The film remained banned until 1991 when the film was then released to the general public.

I could not find a copy of the documentary anywhere even though it was released for home distribution in 2007. A friend of mine in publishing was able to secure a copy for me and I've watched it several times. It is a truly disturbing film and I frequently watch disturbing movies and documentaries, but this one was very unnerving....no spoilers, just be warned.


If you want to read more about Titicut Follies, check out the Wikipedia page and external links for the film:

Titicut Follies Wikipedia Page

If you want to read more about the Bridgewater State Hospital For The Criminally Insane, check out the Wikipedia page.

Bridgewater State Hospital For The Criminally Insane Wikipedia Page


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Thursday, February 28, 2013

Ava Ayers Freezing In Canada, Latest Work In Progress Pretty Hate, Social Media Obsession and Van Morrison

Bienvenue!

Greetings from Canada. Where else would one with thin blood be in February??

I am holed up in a Tim Hortons (read: Dunkin Donuts) working on the outline for my latest project which is tentatively titled Pretty Hate. It is about heartbreak and grief and getting thrown away by lovers. Sounds like a real hoot, huh? It will be funny, I promise. It's starting to feel new adult to me. 

Maybe the themes will feel familiar to some of you?

One theme I've been exploring in this book are the effects social media has on insecurity.

Ever felt like you couldn't stop yourself from digging up the past? Something that hypochondriacs (guilty) are frequently told is that if you search long and hard enough for something, you will find something and when you do, it's devastating.

I've spoken to many people who get on the obsession train and cannot jump off. The compulsion so strong, they've literally thrown themselves in the throes of OCD. They walk among us, though rarely do they admit it. This behavior knows absolutely no demographic. Your mother, if single (and maybe even, if not) does it. Your grandmother does it. Pretty girls do it. Men do it.

And it's utter bullshit when people say it's merely curiosity. No matter what they say happened to the cat, simple curiosity is frequently not heartbreaking. This is. And damaging, Extremely. Because who are you tearing apart when you're alone in your room, Sara Lee cheesecake at the ready, staring at Aspen vacation pics and chastising yourself because you've never been on skis? Do it enough times, it's a habit just as bad for you as cigarettes or copious amounts of caffeine (yes, guilty of those too.)

One of the saddest things is it's done  in the name of love. I've been in some pretty shitty relationships, but love (especially in the beginning where everything is endearing) is not supposed to feel like that.

I love, love. I am a love junky and, not unlike an addict, I've done some pretty horrific stuff in the name of love. But I will never sour to it. Ever. And I've talked to some who are so hurt they say they'll never enter into this soul-suck called love again. I find that the worst residual effect.

It's not love's fault...love is pure. It's the MSG, bovine hormone, high-fructose corn syrup, saccharine additives you mix in with your love. And it's not that I'm enlightened or hip to the game or don't fall on my ass when it comes to love, I surely do. 

I just find the pain of not being in love greater than the pain of being in love. So, fall in love, fall on your ass, shake it off and get back out there. Just try to learn from the epic fails and in time laugh about them. That's the sweetest gift of time. I find when I feel a relationship is ending, when I have proof not speculation that it's ending, I so look forward to that moment that I smack myself of the forehead and realize in my heart that I made a bad choice. And the best part of all is when I no longer give a shit about that "choice." I live for that moment.

And I've made many, hundreds, of bad choices when it comes to love. But I want it too much to ever quit it.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Feeling Aggressive With Latest Project: The Inquisitor's Song

I've been feeling quite angsty and aggressive of late. Not one thing I can point to...some has to do with political climate junk, some inequality stuff and some I attribute to the gloriousness of being female. 

However, as I'm always trying to find the good in the icky, it's a perfect time to fine-tune my latest project which is a novella called The Inquisitor's Song. It is a delicious, passionate, rage-filled tale of two sexy Inquisitors sent by their Order to the present to enact revenge on two heretics. I'm having a lot of fun with it and will post the blurb and the cover soon when it's set for publishing.

In the meantime, I'm currently listening to...


Saturday, January 12, 2013

Shipped Up To Boston To Research Immoral Beloved, See The Dropkick Murphys and Dig Into Jesse Pomeroy's Life

When I was doing all of my research for Immoral Beloved, one of my hunting missions was in Boston where I took the opportunity to see my fellow Bostonians Dropkick Murphys...awesome!

One of the characters in Immoral Beloved is Jesse Pomeroy. In Immoral Beloved, Alexander Battle was enamored with his friend Jesse Pomeroy and teamed up with him to carry out their devilish pursuits. When Jesse was caught for torture and murder, Alexander was devastated and combined Jesse's name and his to form The Battleroy Hotel with the hope that when Jesse was released from prison, he'd join him at The Battleroy and they'd continue their horrific "games."

While Alexander Battle is a character I made up for Immoral Beloved, Jesse Pomeroy was very real and may not be as known as he is to those who are from the Boston-area. 

Jesse Harding Pomeroy has the designation of being the youngest person ever convicted for murder in Massachusetts. He was remanded to the Suffolk County Jail at the age of fourteen in December of 1874. When he turned sixteen, he was then remanded to Charlestown where he remained in solitary confinement until 1929 when he was transferred to the Bridgewater Hospital For The Criminally Insane (more about Bridgewater later) where he remained until his death in 1932.  

Jesse Pomeroy, like the character Alexander Battle in Immoral Beloved, was a bad cat who did some unspeakable things to children while he was free to terrorize the Boston-area.

If you want to read more about Jesse Pomeroy, check out the Wikipedia page:

Jesse Harding Pomeroy's Wikipedia Page



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